it's seriously crazy that everytime I feel like blogging..it's about something utterly depressing. i guess I don't really feel the need to "write" when I'm happy. bcoz when people are happy, they go crazy u know...jump up and down..celebrate..that kinda thing.. but when ur depressed..u feel alone...with ur godforsaken dark thoughts..and I guess you feel..or I feel..the need to let it out..somehow..and I guess I'm using this as my outlet..mainly because of the my blog is erm...relatively dead. =)
well...i gotta say I've never felt such hatred for myself. Really it's not like i'm spending everyday drowning myself in tears..coz that's just...insane. but it's just this deep down self-loathing kinda thing.. and i'm not helping myself by reading other people's blog and well.."seeing" them doing SOMETHING
I know deep down I'm not destined to achieve great things. but I need to be doing SOMETHING and I can't...
because I'm lazy and I'm SCARED which is no excuse.. because everybody feels that way. but i'm stagnant. I can't move. and it frustrates the hell out of me... it's like paranoia at a whole new level.
it just...sucks..
I need a job. NOW maybe that will help..a little bit GET UR LAZY ARSE OFF THE GROUND!!!
right...now that I got that out of my system...
Jakarta was a blast. Seriously. I gotta admit I was a little hesitant going there because I thought it may be a tinsy bit..awkward. but it wasn't..at all.. I had a lot of fun.. and seriously...veron was taking pictures of EVERYTHING! even glenn and me playing scissors, paper,stones!!! that game is damn fun..hahaha..the way we play it at least also, I finally had the chance to go to "Hard Rock Cafe" which was SO SO cool. they had a live band on the day and all..it was seriously sweet. I wanna go again!! =) although the day the came back, the flight was delayed a whole 2 hours! bloody hell...I missed the Merseyside derby!!!!!!!! Maybe if I had watched, stupid fernando torres wouldn't have scored. humph.
also..I FINALLY managed to watch "The Holiday" yesterday. so awesome. really.. I'm a sucker for rom coms like this..its officially been added on to my list.
right..I think i've rambled on enough.. g'day people.
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