I think I'm in denial. I really think I am. I think I don't understand how lucky I am. For some reason, it's like I WANT to feel miserable. seriously.
and it's been bugging me for YEARS. why the hell can't it just go away.
this is what is so freaking TERRIBLE about long holidays. it makes u realize how much in denial you really are..and how freaking empty ur life really is. k maybe not you, but me.
I don't like that fact that i can't sleep everyday because i'm trying to avoid those horrible thoughts. and i don't like the fact that i have to resort to 4am blogging to make myself feel better. and I don't like the fact that i can't seem to talk to anyone about stuff like this. and I don't like the fact that I REALLY REALLY SUCK.
shit. it's time to smile and laugh and push those ugly feelings aside.
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[LAURA]
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[EIGHTEEN GOING ON NINETEEN]
